Memoires from the Dark Side

Walking down a poorly lit street, a nightmare to some, but heaven to me!

As I tread this earthly realm full of despair and misery, I can't help but wonder whether it is all a trick.  Are we being led on by some overseer; a power hungry overlord that plays with our strings like marionettes?  Are we meant to suffer alone in this world and sometimes share our suffering with others?  I can't fathom being in a world where we are led astray so many times and only occasionally shown snippets of hope here and there.

The story of my life is no different than the story of many other people's lives.  We struggle to survive day to day, trying to make ends meet.  But it sometime seems as if there are not "ENDS" for us to meet.  How is it possible that we have created a world where misery and pain are predominant in most people's lives as opposed to happiness and joy?  What confuses me even more is that we are being told that this way of life is the best way of life...repeatedly. 

Often people wonder why anyone would willingly choose the 'Dark Path'; in a lot of cases I would say that because people have become disillusioned with the way things are in this world.  Wars are being fought over things that should rightfully be shared; people are stabbing others in the back just to get a little leverage...and so on.  For me, walking the "Dark Path' has always felt natural, although as I've stated in prior posts, I was in denial for a while. 

Walking this path has afforded me a new perspective on life.  I don't pretend that things are going to be alright anymore, even if sometimes I wish they were.  I don't pretend that people in general are going to be nice to one another, cause historically, that hasn't been the case.  People have killed one another over stupid things such as a belief in a supernatural being, that quite frankly, I don't believe exists; while at the same time condemning violence in other cultures.  Now there's some food for thought!

I no longer wish to partake in a society that continuously lies, cheats and kills.  But, at the same time, I don't have much of an option but to live here and blend in.  However, that being said, it doesn't mean that I have to believe in the beliefs that are espoused.  I just have to bide my time until it's my turn to move on to another realm of existence where hopefully life will be a lot better.  A place where there is no needless violence; a place where we are free to pursue whatever passion we desire, whether physical or spiritual. Until then, I have to unfortunately fit in to some degree and play the good little proverbial sheep so that I can eek out a somewhat manageable standard of living.

Dorrian Knight